作者姓名: shenkwen

I praise God for the opportunity to share mom’s life closely in the last few months of her life – to witness first hand her trust in our Lord. Mom often told me that receiving Jesus as Savior had brought her the most joy and peace. Praise the Lord, in 2003 she converted from a Buddhist, whose source of pride was her good deeds, to a humble Christian who longs to server and glorify God. Her trust in the Lord came to a trial earlier this year when she came down with gallbladder cancer despite of the fact that she lived a disciplined “proper” life, ate a careful diet and exercised daily. Many, including her questioned WHY? It was a difficult blow to her; however, she never doubted that our heavenly Father loved her and would give her nothing but the best. She knew her life was completely in God’s hands and she lived each day by faith and drew strength from the Lord. She prayed, read the Bible, and often sang hymns to praise God. Sometimes she cried, but she reassured me those were not te

常言道：福無重至，禍不單行。 我從來未想過禍不單行的事會突然臨到我的家，且在我父親及我的身上。 我在零八年四月確診患上初期癌症，跟住過了兩天我父親確 診患上腦癌。 他的腫瘤很大不能做手術，其他治療也幫不了他。 只有順其自然了。 他進醫院後幾天就不能行動，跟住吞食困難。 先父僅住院兩個月就辭世返天家。 其間我做了兩次小手術，不用做任何治療。 但在我自己身心靈都軟弱之時還要天天跑醫院關顧我父親，那些日子真不容易過。 幸有角聲癌友關懷小組成員Suki上門探訪、祈禱及鼓勵。 最使我難忘的是Suki跪在我父親的病床前為他代禱，那真誠的心打動了我。 我曾多次對她說：“待我健康好轉，我會加入你們的行列，因我自己及家人落在困境中得到上帝藉著角聲的關懷給我們安慰、力量及支持，我也應該將這愛延伸。 ” 果然上帝給我醫治，我內心深知這是神的恩典，我應該以行動回報神之恩。 同年十月我參加了角聲癌友關懷培訓班後並開始參予關懷活動。 我正在關顧的家庭與我家一樣，父女同樣得了癌症。 我與另一位義工一起探訪他們，聆聽他們的苦衷及給他們在精神上的安慰與支持。 及致這位伯父由不喜歡與任何人談話到很樂於與我們傾談。 還有伯母因看 < 恩雨之聲 > 節目受感動並請我們為他們父女代禱，他們夫婦也早晚同心祈禱上帝給他們平安。 目前女兒病得醫治，父母親亦接受了耶穌為他們的個人救主。 最近伯父住進療養院，他看到我們探訪他及為他代禱，他顯得很開心與安寧。 我們為此感謝上帝給一切困苦患病人的恩典。 我深盼世上無論心靈或肉身困苦的人們都樂於來到上帝的面前求他的看顧及得平安。 當我病復原後，對賜人平安的上帝有很多的感恩，心裡亦思想生命該像什麼才有價值。 上帝給我提示: 生命如臘燭，為照耀而燃燒自己 生命如鹽，為調和而失去自己 這是多美的生命。 我覺得我們角聲癌友關懷的義工，一群願意成為臘燭、鹽的人，將給這灣區帶來從上帝而來的關懷與溫暖。

面對嚴重疾病，很多人都會感到懼怕和無助，但亦有人能在當中重新領會生命的真義，體味世間的溫暖，現年77 歲的李國輝便是其中一個。 李國輝原籍中國台山，長大後到北方就讀化工學院，並在就學期間認識太太，兩人畢業後分別成為北京化工廠的科技部幹部。李國輝與妻子育有數名兒女，生活一直安穩豐足。1979年，中國改革開放，為了兒女的前途，李國輝帶著家人移民到香港，經營小生意。在香港生活了7 年後，李國輝一家在1986 年舉家移民到美國三藩市。 雖然是人地生疏，但李國輝一家在三藩市的生活尚算安逸無憂，直至在2007 年，身體檢查報告證實，李國輝患上第二期肺癌。 「我不吸煙又不飲酒，心情開朗，工作積極，」李國輝回想起當日獲悉這壞消息時的心情。「患上這病，感到不服氣，但沒辦法, 唯有照醫生方法辦。」 在2008 年1 月11 日，李國輝接受了癌細胞切除手術，之後又要接受化療。看著自己的頭髮因藥物副作用而慢慢地脫落，精神萎靡, 食慾不振，李國輝沒有自怨自憐，反而更積極的面對病情和人生，他能持有這樣正面的態度，主要的原因是愛。 「我並沒有要求，是林生(角聲癌友關懷統籌)發現我，」李國輝說。「無條件來幫助和關心我，我從來未見過這麼好的人。」 李國輝表示，以往也曾接觸過基督教，應朋友邀請，參加教會聚會，但覺得聚會內容枯燥，不感興趣，再加上自小受到中國無神論學說的影響，因此，並沒繼續追求基督教信仰的慾望，不過，疾病和別人無條件的關懷， 改變了他的想法。 「阿Joe (角聲癌友關懷義工) 帶我參加他教會的聚會，」李國輝繼續說，「我今次的感覺和第一次截然不同，可能是自己有病，需要寄託，一入教堂，覺得很舒服，又有人傾談，講道理。」 雖然當時還未信主，但在教會弟兄姊妹的關懷下，李國輝深深感到基督教的愛。 「08 年12 月28 日，睡到五時多醒來，睡不著，想到教會對我的幫助很大」李國輝說，「既然是這樣，不如打開心霾信主，於是寫了一首詩，決定信主，後來將事情告訴Joe，他開心到不得了。」 李國輝在09 年7 月12 日接受涭禮，只要身體狀況容許，他都會參加教會在星期五舉行的團契，以及星期日舉行的崇拜。他還特意為他的教會寫了一首藏頭詩: 溢華耶穌恩，樂領基督情。 華燈初上日，人間春暖時。 浸禮洗罪孽，信主得永生。 會眾齊侍奉，好果共甘甜。 醫生發現李國輝的癌症已擴散到腦部，由於化療影響他的健康情況和免疫力，

I heard a lot about how bad cancer could be but I had been living with an ill-based confidence that it would never happen to me. That was until I experienced it, firsthand, as a recent convert, 15 years ago, when it struck home showing how devastating and fearsome cancer was! With gratitude to our Lord for His healing, after surgery and in less than 4 months after the ominous discovery, my cancer episode was behind me. From then on, other than the continual yearly monitoring, I can almost keep my mind off it. However, deep inside I yearned to understand and experience the omnipresence of our loving God. I knew my motive may not be for any higher purpose other than to be convinced that at my final physical bodily struggle my loving Lord will still be there with me. Though, admittedly I also wanted to learn to care and concern for people who are in need! For more than 10 years I did not take any action on what I yearn for until a little over two years ago when my wife and I were so move

The saying, “When it rains, it pours.” aptly described the calamities landing on my family. In April 2008, I was diagnosed to have early stage cancer. Two days later, my father was found to have brain cancer, with an inoperable tumor. No treatment was available to him, and he was left to die. Shortly after being admitted to the hospital, he lost his mobility, and had difficulty swallowing his food. He passed away only two months later. During that time, I underwent two operations, but did not have to endure any other treatments. In my weakened state, I still had to go to the hospital every day to care for my dying father. Those were indeed very challenging days for me. I was thankful that Herald Cancer Care sent volunteer Suki to visit and care for me. She prayed for me and gave me encouragement. What moved me deeply was when Suki knelt at the bedside of my father to pray for him. Her praying from the heart touched me. I told her more than once that when I regained my health, I would

When I first met Shirley (not her real name), a 48 year-old patient, she had been in our telemetry unit for about two weeks earlier this year. She was initially admitted to the ICU with a pulmonary embolism (blood clot in the lungs). Quickly she was diagnosed with lung cancer that had metastasized to the brain and other organs. The news came so suddenly that the total shock turned Shirley and her family’s lives upside down. Her family and doctors wanted to fight the cancer with every opportunity, but her body was deteriorating every day, causing her to lose a lot of weight and to feel weak and exhausted. As a result she needed help with her daily activities such as getting out of bed, walking a few steps, and even going to the bathroom, things that most people take for granted. Chemotherapy and aggressive treatments proved to be futile to halt the progression of the cancer. In the face of these challenges, Shirley and her husband made it known to the medical and nursing staff that the

I was diagnosed with Stage IV lung cancer in November 2012 that occurs to 20% of the Southeast Asian women who don’t smoke of which I am one. At that moment, the mutating cancer cells have pervaded over 8 areas of my body and one tumor was the size of a baseball and my doctor gave me only 24-72 hours to live on that day. I was ready to let go but my husband was very sad and wanted me to fight it. With three teenagers still in the house, I prayed to a God that I claimed to know 10 years ago but had been lukewarm all these years. And God pulled me through. After 10 sessions of radiation and being put on an oral targeted drug, my cancer receded every month. I was joyous and thankful to the Lord. I understood that the Lord was keeping me alive for more reason than just letting me spend more time with my family. He has created a thirst in me for Him and the Word. I passed most of my days studying the bible, going to bible courses, attending bible study groups, reading Christian books, visi

讚美神，讓我有機會在母親生命最後的幾個月裏緊緊地陪伴著她，能親身見証她對主的信靠！母親常常告訴我，接受了耶穌為救主帶給她最大的喜樂和平安。讚美主，在二ＯＯ三年她從一位以自己的良好行為感到驕傲的佛教徒，改變為一位謙卑渴慕事奉和榮耀神的基督徒！ 在今年年初，母親對主的信靠受到試鍊。雖然她平常的生活很有規律又檢點、小心飲食和天天鍛練身體，竟然也會患上膽囊癌。她和很多人都問“為甚麼？”。這是個很大的打擊，但她未曾懷疑過天父對她的愛，並深信祂的供應是最好的。她知道神在掌管她的生命，她就憑著信心從主得到力量去活每一天。她祈禱、讀聖經和常常唱詩讚美神。有時候她哭了，但她肯定地告訴我，她不是為了悲傷落淚，而是當她數算神在她生命中無數的祝福，她感恩流淚。神的話語安慰鼓勵她： “我雖然行過死蔭的幽谷，也不怕遭害；因為你與我同在，你的杖，你的竿，都安慰我。” (詩篇23:4) "所以，我們不喪膽；外體雖然毀壞，內心卻一天新似一天。” (哥林多後書4:16) 母親如果不是順服神和得到神的話語的鼓勵，她是不會同意去接受會使頭髮脫落的化療。認識我母親的人，都知道她沒有一天是 “蓬頭日”。神是信實的，在三個月的療程後，她的頭髮雖然稀薄不少，但卻有足夠頭髮讓她看上去仍然很高雅。在她返回天家的一個半星期前，我看見她的頭髮大大地脫落，心裏覺得很難過。母親倒安慰我並用神的應許提醒我: “就是你們的頭髮，也都被數過了。” (馬太福音10:30) 她叫我不要憂慮，因為神在看顧她。 我們很懷念母親，但靠著神賜永生的應許，我們因此得到安慰。聖經記載說： “復活在我，生命也在我，信我的人，雖然死了，也必復活。凡活著信我的人，必永遠不死。你信這話嗎？” (約翰福音11:25-26) 母親信！ 神還讓她有異象一瞥天國：在她離世的一個星期前，母親的臉上展開了一個自她生病以來我未曾見過的寬大笑容。她滿有喜樂地告訴我，神答允她的禱告，顯示了一個五彩繽紛和漂亮美麗的世界(樂園)給她看，是一處比任何她遊覽過的勝地都可愛的地方。 那像天使般的笑容告訴我們，母親所經歷的是只有從神而來的真正平安。雖然她面臨死亡，但透過耶穌她已勝過死亡。母親的的確確已離開了這塵世，而永永遠遠與我們的主基督同在。她盼望有一天，未信主的親戚朋友們都會接受信耶穌得永生的禮物，好讓她在天堂與大家再見！

The bad news hit me like a lightning on a peaceful uneventful day. During a routine physical checkup last October, the doctor announced that he discovered cancer in my body. I was advised to go through a ten-hour operation that included a special procedure of administering chemotherapy inside my body. It was to be a complex and intricate procedure even the feasibility of which was to be confirmed with a specialist. I was totally unprepared for this, and the news caused my emotion to plunge. I felt quite helpless. My emotion started a roller coaster of a journey for the next several days until I finally was ready to accept the reality. I braced myself to face the surgical treatment. I even made plans in case I did not make it through the operation. It was at that juncture that I recalled reading somewhere that Herald Cancer Care offered the caring service for cancer patients. I called them to see if they could help me. My thoughts were filled with worries about what might happen to my